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Re-Publishing my Poetry Book

"Unraveling" by Samantha Burgett

as long i’ve allowed
the world to direct me
i’ve never truly heard
myself speaking

i’m afraid to be bold
to wander alone
to defy the stories
that teach me to HATE ME

i’m afraid to
show myself
to love myself

i believe loving myself
wrapped in sin and

how fucking heartbreaking

no wonder i’m miserable
no wonder i’m angry

i’m not fighting against them
i’m fighting against me

From “Unraveling: Diary of a Healing Soul” pg. 32–33, 2020

Excerpt from the book Excerpt from the book “Unraveling: Diary of a Healing Soul” by Samantha Burgett.

Author’s Note

It’s time to bring one of my books back to life, and this poem represents what started it all. The (very) short story is that I was unhappy, suffering from PTSD, crippling anxiety, nightmares, and other lingering side effects from traumatic experiences. As a young mother, I couldn’t take it anymore and was desperate for relief—I wanted to discover a stronger version of myself for my children. Thus began an intense self-exploration mission.

My goal was to face head-on the events of my past that were causing me pain. From a sexually and emotionally abusive relationship, to simply challenging what I believed and why I believed it, to learning to honestly acknowledge my own role in my pain, I tried my best to sit with the discomfort and lean into the feelings. And I wrote. A lot.

Poetry saved me. It gave a voice to parts of myself I was too ashamed, too afraid, and too angry to face. In the years since, I’ve been on the mend and tying loose ends and getting to know life without the weight of the past. But in those early days, I’d grab a pen and just channel the feelings into words, leaving no room for edits or thought. Just pure, raw vulnerability with myself, which was oftentimes an excruciating process! But I found stillness on the other side of the rage and pain, which left room for curiosity, which led me to today.

I’ll share more on the revival of my handwritten book, “Unraveling: Diary of a Healing Soul” over the coming weeks. I’ve softly re-launched the book and you can find it available here!


  • FlowIntoWords
    September 14, 2023 at 7:58 am

    “i believe loving myself
    is SELFISH
    wrapped in sin and

    Oh, how I relate to these lines! My journey started when I became a mother too, and writing poetry has been a huge support. I find it beautiful you’ve made this book capturing your healing journey. It shows a self love – to give a voice to all those parts within you.❤️ I feel people often feel more alone in their experiences than they really are, and it can help people to know they aren’t. I’m definitely interested in reading your book. Thanks for sharing!

    • Samantha Burgett
      September 15, 2023 at 3:20 pm

      Thank you for your kind words! I’m glad this could be relatable in some way—like you mentioned, it’s so helpful to realize we aren’t alone and oftentimes others silently feel the same! That’s my hope in sharing these chapters from my own story. To at least offer a chance to connect with others in the same boat (for myself and them.) Thank you for commenting. It’s nice to officially meet you! 🩵

      • FlowIntoWords
        September 22, 2023 at 7:39 am


  • Nicole Smith
    September 14, 2023 at 11:48 am

    This poem is how I feel too.

    • Samantha Burgett
      September 15, 2023 at 3:18 pm

      One day at a time, friend. Takes a long time to unlearn this stuff (or chip away at bits and pieces of it, at least). 🩵🩵🩵

  • Michele Lee
    September 15, 2023 at 4:28 pm

    Bravo, Samantha! 💐 I already love it!

    • Samantha Burgett
      September 15, 2023 at 11:23 pm

      Thank you Michele! A certain conversation may have given me the final push to send this back into the world. 🤍🤍

      • Michele Lee
        September 16, 2023 at 12:37 am

        😊 🌼

  • Tamara
    September 23, 2023 at 4:19 pm

    So powerful.


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